Desperation

Well yesterday was great with Mike but I’m not going to lie as I sit here and ponder upon yesterday’s events if feels as though I’ve finally screwed up the one thing that I need and love the most in the world to put it bluntly yesterday I had the biggest panic attack I’ve ever had and now the paranoia/the aftermath will not leave me and as you can gather from the title of this post that I desperate to let go of the pain and I’m also desperate to know what is going to happen know mainly because it feels as though the world is falling apart and nothing seems right anymore, what have I done? That is the question I keep asking myself. On a different note; my old blog has reached 1944 page views and this blog has reached 4666 page views (there is some irony there).