Modesty

I really hate talking about myself, not sure why, I’d rather let the vain take that pleasure but never mind, today has been a really horrible day, mainly worrying and stressing about my wedding day but that’s normal, what isn’t normal is when I worry that day seems like an impossible dream when its only a few steps away from becoming a reality, yes I know its not for another year yet but in this day in age you have to have advance booking because its “first come, first serve”. So today began with the heartrending phone call to the church about prices and they still can’t get me answer, I doubt there will be much of a problem of not being a member of the church but what about the fee’s? Will they charge us for not being member’s? It would seem unfair when the church itself allows all to enter through its door’s. Does this fact put me off? Slightly, we met at the college and I want to stare the college in the face and show them where I am now. However, the minister/reverent is back on the 10th, so that means I’m going to crap myself again when we enter through those doors and begin the long conversation of figures and the possibility of tears seem likely. What I need right now is some reassurance that everything is going to be alright and that day isn’t dream/fantasy and a hug from the man I love more than anything else in the world. On much more sensible note; my old blog has reached 2,282 page views and this blog has reached 7,488 page views (there has been a lot of traffic here).