Reappear

Usually I would explain my absence but to be honest, I’ve got this idea for a random thought since Friday and I really need to write it down here, it will probably do more justice in explaining what has happened better than I can, also I should mention that my random thoughts are fictional.

“The Minotaur’s wounds have been healed, it now wakes with a menacing howl as it tries to give case, I run faster and faster through the labyrinth with no means of escape and soon I hit a dead end. In front of me there is a new beast, the beast who controls the Minotaur and my demons. A Hydra stands tall with its gruesome head, it’s fangs drip black ink and its scales give of a purple sheen. I stand in-between two monsters with only a blade in my hand. I charge towards the Hydra and cut its head with ease. The Minotaur has stopped in its path, laughing at me. Why does it stand there? What it is waiting for? The answer is clear as the Hydra is reborn with another two heads. I lash and lash at the beast and its black inky blood stains the stone floor. I keep lashing and more heads grow, by this time my hands are stained in black ink. There is more heads than body, I can’t escape. I try to run passed the Minotaur but it stands firm watching me drown in a sea of black ink. I am afraid, I panic, I’m losing control. With a howl, the Hydra lunges at me and I can smell its rancid breathe. I fall deeper and deeper into a dark oblivion, I’m drowning in my own creation. The sea of black ink stains my hands, my face and everything it touches. I begin to question what I am and who I have become but there is no answer, there is only the sound of dripping ink from my hands“~ random thought.

Now the explanation; I’m not sure what I can put here, probably just the short version, put it this way on Friday my complaint was resolved and I no longer need to look upon my advisor, I can move on. I can get the respect I deserve. I can finally get my placement, I might even get a job out of it with any luck. I am also going get confidence building skills which I really need after all this, to be honest I could have did without the mental breakdown but that’s out of my control (I must remember that). Basically in short; I am going to be busy this week. Although, I’ve still got a million things to do. Also, while I remember, I will apologise for no double post yesterday. Yesterday with Mike was really great despite the fact I had another breakdown (paranoia is a pain) but that is a different story. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,345 page views and this blog has reached 8,261 page views (there has been traffic on both blogs, I think)