Aware

“I can hear the demon’s swirling in my mind, I can feel them pushing their way forward, I can feel the darkness closing in but I stand defiant against these foes and yet, I feel lost. These thoughts arrived yesterday without warring and now as I ascend to Paradise, I feel like I’ve lost my way or some part of myself. It the demons that are making me feel like this when all I want to feel is happiness and the warmth of you tender embrace. I yearn for Paradise yet it feel like something is stopping me from truly feeling happy but I smile because I get to see you my sweet prince. However, something has sunk into my skin that I’m not aware of, it’s embedded itself there, waiting for the right moment and I worry now as I think upon tomorrow if it will strike. In the morning, this feeling will fade away, this embedded darkness will be no more and I can feel like myself again, tomorrow I will be truly happy as I lye in your tender embrace, tomorrow I will be free from my own shadow, tomorrow, my sweet prince, I will lay my demon’s”~ random thought