Charcoal (BPD) [Borderline Personality Disorder]

It has,
Not one,
Face,
But,
Many,
It switches,
On the fly,
And you’re,
Left,
Confused,
Alone,
Yet,
There are,
Good days,
Living,
In this,
Charcoal,
World,
You see things,
Feel things,
Like other’s don’t,
But,
The happiness,
Doesn’t last,
Forever,
The next moment,
I’m thinking,
Believing,
That I have,
No friends,
And,
I’m a terrible,
Person,
I sometimes,
Say things,
I don’t mean,
And can hurt,
The ones,
Close to me,
I am misunderstood,
Because,
I’m seen,
As impulsive,
For doing,
Things,
I shouldn’t,
Like drink,
Or self-harm,
I find it hard,
To trust,
To let anyone,
In,
Because,
I’m afraid,
They’ll,
Leave me,
Behind,
To live,
In the,
Madness,
Of charcoal,
I don’t know,
Who I am,
Most of the time,
I fear,
Everyday,
And what,
Is going to happen,
I have trouble,
Sleeping,
Insomnia,
Wakes me,
With terrible,
Thoughts,
That I need,
Someone,
To listen,
And not judge me,
I need,
Someone,
To reassure me,
That this mental,
Torture,
Will end,
That I’m not,
Alone,
Sometimes,
I push,
People away,
Because,
They want me,
To do things,
Their way,
I withdraw,
Into my,
Charcoal,
World,
Seeking the darkness,
It never helps,
Is there,
A way,
To keep,
The switch,
In a stable place?
I believe,
It will,
Get better,
With,
Help,
And friends,
People,
Who understand,
The tornado,
That goes on,
In my mind