Azure (Agoraphobia)

My condition,

Is not,

Just a simple,

Fear,

Of open,

Spaces,

I’m scared,

To travel,

Alone,

And sometimes,

Even,

Leave,

My own,

Home,

I’m scared,

To visit,

A shopping,

Centre,

Unless,

I’m with,

A friend,

Or someone,

I trust,

Despite,

The,

Azure,

Sky above me,

I don’t feel,

Calm,

The anxiety,

Is sometimes,

Paralysing,

The panic,

Attacks,

Are swift,

Dizzying,

And nauseous,

I can sometimes,

Think,

That I will,

Feel embarrassed,

If have a panic attack,

I feel,

Like I won’t be,

Able to escape,

Which,

Makes the panic,

Rise,

Even higher,

I feel,

Like,

I’m losing,

My sanity,

Piece,

By little,

Piece,

I feel,

Like,

I won’t be able,

To survive,

Without,

Anyone around me,

I sometimes,

Won’t leave,

The house,

For periods,

Of time,

I try,

To avoid,

Situations,

That can lead,

To panic attacks,

But I also,

Try and force myself,

To get out there,

But,

The fear,

And anxiety,

Still flutters,

In my chest,

I’ve tried,

The self-help,

Techniques,

And the help,

A little,

And sometimes,

Not at all,

The doctors,

Have recommended,

Some,

Therapy,

I’ll take,

It with open arms,

I want to be able,

To look,

Up at,

The azure,

Sky,

And feel calm,

Instead,

Of like,

I’m drowning,

Over,

And,

Over again