As the title says I’m going to have another relaxing Sunday by doing bits and piece’s although I really need to get back to saving all my poem’s I’ve written onto my USB but I really can’t be bothered and besides, there is 150 of them (I think) and there are still on going however in 9 months time when my life changes for the better those poems will stop. Although I might still write a few poems here and there but we will see. Yesterday with Mike was magnificent. On a side note; my old blog has reached 2,406 page views and this blog has reached 9,232 page views (there has been traffic on both blogs).

“The Minotaur is playing with my head, the paranoid voices are swimming around and around looking for a sign of weakness, I can already feel myself wanting to give in and admit that the voices are right, to admit that the Minotaur has won at long last but I keep pushing forward against this torrent of woe, I must not give in. I can see the way out just in front of me and I hear the Minotaur howling in protest as I soar into the skies away from the darkness below. I’ve made it into Limbo but the paranoia is still chasing after my shadow but I ignore it. I carry on towards Paradise, smiling now as I think of you my sweet prince, I think of the hour’s we will share in each other’s arms and I think of my freedom in Paradise, tomorrow will be the start of a new day to new year, tomorrow I will not need to worry or panic, tomorrow I will let my hair down as we wonder infinitely in Paradise”~ random thought

It seems whatever the problem was yesterday has now disappeared which I really thankful for but that is a different story. The year is coming to an end and it seems sort of surreal to think that I’ve been writing this blog for two whole years and its thanks to you nice people out there that keep this blog on the rise and spreading the word to your friends. This year has been a mixture of up’s and downs but I’ve learned a lot and that makes my drive to live my dream even stronger. I don’t have a set plan for the new year apart from continue to edit Reach and find away into self employment whilst paying of the rest of the reception and the church (need to go back there at some point), whilst adding the final details like flowers and whatever else I can think of. I’m so excited for next year but I’m also rather nervous. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,401 page views and this blog has reached 9,164 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for continuing to visit both blogs.

Firstly; I will apologise for the lateness of the post as for some reason either my laptop or the internet was acting up and it was taking longer than usual to do anything or get anywhere, fortunately it seemed to have enough juice for me to do a job search. Secondly; I don’t really have much else to report on this blog. Last but not least; my old blog has reached 2,401 page views and this blog has reached 9,151 page views (there has been a jump in traffic flow on this blog).

Since my breakdown at the work programme (a long time ago) I have been rather careful in what I put here but it seems since then there have been no further mentions of my blog which is good new for me but this old new for you nice people. I don’t think I have anything interesting to report apart from the fact that I am looking forward to next year, I’m not looking forward to the stress or worry that it will bring but I will be fine in the end. I will apologise if this post seems like random gibberish. On a different note; my old blog has reached 2,401 page views and this blog has reached 9,138 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for visiting both blogs.

Once again I sit here with thought buzzing around my head and none of them make any sense but to be honest, I feel fine despite the conflicting thoughts but that is a different story. Yesterday with Mike was perfect and that’s all I’ve got to say on that front. I will however apologise for the briefness of this post. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,400 page views and this blog has reached 9,128 page views (there has been a jump in traffic on this blog).

“Still in a dream like state, I wonder endless in my own thoughts and then I remember what tomorrow will bring and I soon start to smile again. The Minotaur has been absent for quite some time and I am thankful for that fact as I can wonder closer to Paradise without fear or hesitation that my demons will follow me. I wonder what stories we will weave tomorrow my sweet prince, I wonder how much laughter we will share, I wonder what Paradise has in store for us”~ random thought

*Don’t read until Christmas Day*

“In the morning the silence will break with the sound of joyful children looking under the tree at the presents that have been left behind because they have been good boys and girls this year. In the morning, others will wake with a smile and a fierce urge to open every present with their name on it while others will shed a few tears for those that they hold dear and are no longer here to join in on the festive fun. I look towards Paradise and I find myself smiling as I think upon you my sweet prince, I hope this year will bring you joy, happiness and good cheer like all the other year’s before. Merry Christmas to all”~ random thought

“Bliss and silence create me as I wonder upon the threshold to Paradise, who knew that I would be returning so soon to your tender embrace. I like it better here than the labyrinth but I can sense that the Minotaur is displeased by my absence and I can only hope that when I return to that foul place that the Minotaur doesn’t destroy what is left of my will but as I float among the clouds, blissfully aware of the world beneath me, I begin to smile as I think upon what tomorrow will have in store for us both. I smile as I think of lying in your tender embrace until the stars glitter in skies, I smile as I think of you and I will never stop thinking of you, my sweet prince”~ random thought

“I teeter on the edge of Paradise, not knowing if I will fall at a moment’s notice or if I will fall into your embrace, I stay awake watching the clouds roam by and I sit there pondering if the madness will end soon. The answer comes in the shape of figure standing in a bright white light with their wings unfolded. the figure doesn’t speak and it doesn’t move towards me, it just stands there watching over me. I wonder for a fleeting moment if it’s my guardian angel but the figure disappear’s before I get to ask any questions. Maybe, it s you that I see, standing there, watching over me, maybe it’s you that I sense behind these gates of Paradise, longing for my touch. Tomorrow will come soon enough my sweet prince and I will be in your arms once again, tomorrow we shall enjoy our trip to the cinema, tomorrow, I shall lay in your arms, forever”~ random thought