“The Minotaur still lies in the labyrinth wounded as I can still hear its disgruntled cries of pain but from time to time, I can’t hear it breathe or speak its foul language, maybe the Minotaur is finally dying inside its own creation but once before the Minotaur was close to death and was instantly revived by my demons, this time is different, I will no submit to the demons or the Minotaur, I am no longer chained to the labyrinth, I can come and go as I please, no more demons, no more cold nights, no more shadows along the walls, I sit here now in the white clouds near Paradise with a smile on my face as I think of what tomorrow will bring and I think of you my sweet prince, I think how our future is within our sights at last”~ random thought

Please check out my old blog;http://heatherpollock98.blogspot.co.uk/ as I finally did some more editing but I will let you read that for yourself. Today has been mainly a day for paper work as I’ve finally written out my questions to ask the wedding planner on Wednesday and I’ve had a brainwave which will take immediate effect on Wednesday (if all goes well that is), what is this brainwave? Well, that is for me to know and for you to find out. Anyway; my old blog has reached 2,337 page views and this blog has reached 8,167 page views (there has been traffic on both blogs).

As you may have gathered from the title of this post, I am currently distracting myself by thinking way too much but that is a different story. Yesterday with Mike was really, really great but to be honest, I kind of miss being in Paradise but again that is a different story. On another note; I’ve just sent my CV along with a cover letter for a new store opening in Kirkcaldy. On a side note; my old blog has reached 2,327 page views and this blog has reached 8,145 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for continuing to visit both blogs.

“A low soft light fills these walls but I don’t wonder in the labyrinth, I wonder closer to the threshold of Paradise, I look upon those gates in the distance, I feel free from my worries and woes as I sit upon that threshold thinking of you my sweet prince, thinking of what tomorrow will bring, thinking of your soft kisses and your tender embrace, I smile once more as I wait to gain entrance into our Paradise of love”~ random thought

Today would have been a double post if everything had gone according to plan yesterday but unfortunately not mainly because we have now to re-arrange our meeting with the wedding planner as Mike has his induction for Amazon tomorrow brings me onto yesterday’s events. Yesterday was really great but I’m suffering from myself at the moment (that’s a different story), we went to see the reverent but got told to come back later on, so we headed of to Dunfermline as Mike had an interview for Amazon (my opinion on that matter will remain biased). He really like the gifts I gave him and I really like the little necklace he gave me. In short, it was a great day, despite the fact Mike has to back to Amazon but at he is going to be getting a decent wage for the next few months. I, meanwhile have been busy going through the channels to see if I can complain about Triage, turns out I have to phone them and then write down a statement, don’t the realise that I am writer? Anyway; on a lighter note; my old blog has reached 2,327 page views and this blog has reached 8,118 page views (there has been traffic on both blogs).

“The Minotaur doesn’t wake today as it still clutches its wound, maybe it will die again and I will be free of the demons it brings in its long shadow, I can only hope so but for now I wonder the labyrinth freely inspecting the walls and the dirty floor but it has no appeal to me, my home lye’s in Paradise with you my sweet prince, my home is within your tender embrace. I wonder now headstrong, away from the chaos of the labyrinth, away from my demons and away from any thoughts or worries. I wonder closer and closer to Paradise, thinking of tomorrow, of our journey towards our future, of the path we are forging to get ever closer to achieving Paradise. All I know is that tomorrow will be a truly great day for us both”~ random thought

I’m sort of glad Triage hasn’t phoned me to, just keep giving me fuel to add to the fire which will burn you (metaphorically of course), the reason I am glad is because apparently they had found an opening at Kennoway Co-op after months (and I mean months) of waiting to hear any word back from the application form I filled out, they wanted some to start at 6 o’clock in the morning when the post clearly stated 5, not happening in my books. The man covering for Vicky said he would phone Monday telling me if he arrange something with the manager, so far, so good. Silence from the bureaucrats at Triage, I could live with silence. Which reminds me, my advisor failed to mention that there is a new work placement advisor that’s just started there, I could have did with this information the last time I was at the dole but I tell you something nice people, I’m going to push for the NHS placements I was supposed to be put on regardless of how many people get upset (that will be Vicky). Why should I play there game when I can bend the rules? Why should I sit here and let them pull the strings when I can cut them and break free? I know that sounds like rebellion but I don’t see why not, I’m tired of being cast from person to person without any answer and I am tired that no-one is bothered to help me, I’d sooner help myself (which I have been doing, in small doses). Anyway; on a lighter note; my old blog has reached 2,326 page view and this blog has reached 8,092 page views (there has been traffic on both blogs).

A another unusual title for another unusual post, I feel as though I walking in a day dream where thoughts collide with each other creating a kaleidoscope of colours but there is one thought that I savour amongst those colourful images, the one that is most precious to me is that last sweet kiss Mike give me before I leave Paradise, I yearn to kiss him again and again and again until I can no longer kiss him. I know that sounds really soppy and romantic but you will get used to it. Friday with Mike was really awesome, we went to Kinghorn again and got loads of photo’s (which I won’t bore you with) and Saturday with Mike was really awesome. On a different note; Triage was a waste of time on Friday and I have more fuel to add to my complaint about Vicky (not that I needed more). On a side note; my old blog has reached 2,325 page views and this blog has reached 8,081 page views (there has been a jump in traffic here).

“Again the nightmares sway me in the morning light as the Minotaur enjoys this new torment but today all is silent in the labyrinth, all is calm and still as I wonder the stone walls but today I am defiant against this torment, today I will make my stand against the Minotaur as I will no subject myself to its torture for a moment longer, today I leave the Minotaur clutching its near fatal wound, the Minotaur cries in pain but I don’t hear it as I wonder towards Paradise, searching for the light that always comforts me, searching for home, searching for the one man that can make everything perfect”~ random thought

Another strange title but never mind, I feel like today has flown by rather quickly and I beginning to wonder where it all went too as before I knew where I was, I was rushing down to the writing group only to face a locked door and my fellow writers, luckily I did quite well today despite the fact that I arrived out of breathe, I will type here the short letter I wrote two weeks ago whilst I was at Triage, if you haven’t read The Screwtape Letters by C.S Lewis then I highly recommend that you do before reading this, its my take on what if Lucifer wrote to to Screwtape, I’m quite pleased how it has turned out but I suppose you will be the judge of that.

Dear Screwtape, 

                            I’ve heard much about the failure of your nephew but don’t worry, your not to blame, the boy has been punished for this.

I wonder if he simply didn’t have enough experience or he paid little heed to the letters you sent.

Maybe he lacked the courage to tempt the patient over to our cause, whatever the reason I feel as though the boy needs to taught the basics, all over again.

As for you my dear friend, I suppose you can relax for a while but I feel as though your services are needed as these young tempters seem to be lacking either that are the standards we want to them to achieve are too high.

Do you remember your patient record? Nearly everyone was flawless in their eternal damnation, sure a few slipped through our fingers (but nothing as spectacular as your nephew’s failure).

I feel as though you and I can teach these young tempters a thing or two but I suppose they are to wet behind the ears for my type of schooling.

Anyway, if its not too much to ask and if your not busy watching your nephew suffer, if I was you I would reconsider your position and go back to the good old days where patients fell into this place.

Besides, we desperately need your skills and talent to get those patients back.

Your Eternally

Your God

On a different note; my old blog has reached 2,323 page views and this blog has reached 8,014 page views (there has been a jump in traffic here).