For some reason I am now battling with myself  over the ever present thoughts that I thought I had left behind but that is a different story. Yesterday; with Mike was super amazing and awesome. On a different note; I am also trying to work out what my latest work programme letter means; my appointment is 3 weeks away and all it says is “Speculative Approach session 2”, I’ve been doing the speculative approach for a whole year and it isn’t helping me get anyway, so I can only wait and see what this session 2 entails but if anyone else has been on the work programme and knows what is involved, please comment on this post. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,367 page views and this blog has reached 8,660 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for continuing to visit both blogs.

“Again, the Minotaur has tried hard to persuade me into doubting myself, my dreams, my ambition’s, my goals and everything that I’ve worked hard to achieve thus far but now the beast lies silent somewhere in this vast labyrinth and I wonder freely as all my burden’s have now been buried and forgotten although there is a dark cloud that still hangs over my head but I pay little heed to it as I wonder with a smiling face towards Paradise. Tomorrow; will be a day without worry, without sleepless nights, without panic. Tomorrow will be a day for us, just us. Tomorrow, I will wake with the same smile I wear now but I will not have to wonder to Paradise as I will awake in your arms and dream of nothing”~ random thought

Today has been a rather go between day as it started off well but now its gone down in flames, don’t ask me why, I just feel like everything has started to go wrong, I suppose I could blame the weather but that is a different story altogether. Usually, by now I would have finished or at least written my Screwtape letter for Tuesday but I’ve not even made a start to it but again that is a different story. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,367 page views and this blog has reached 8,619 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for continuing to visit both blogs.

Sufficed to say I thoroughly enjoyed going back to the writing group today as now regain my somewhat lost routine however I owe John, a fellow member the sum of one Screwtape letter but lately I have been thinking on how I could evolve those letter’s and now the thought of a sinner walking into a confessional and having a chat with Screwtape or Lucifer seems to persistently nagging me, so somehow I’m gong to write it before next week and that’s really it. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,367 page views and this blog has reached 8,594 page views (there has been traffic on this blog)

Somehow the title of this post seems rather fitting as I am trying to untangle myself from the mass of thoughts in my mind that serve only to make me suffer, the one thing I have learned since the confidence workshop is that everything starts with a thought and believe you me its true, I should know first hand what its like to suffer from your own thoughts but that is a different story. While I remember, I answered both the question I posted here. Also, yesterday with Mike was really awesome. On a side note; my old blog has reached 2,365 page views and this blog has reached 8,515 page views (there has been a lot of traffic on this blog).

“The nightmares returned a few nights ago but they seemed forced and more violent than before however as I wonder through the labyrinth again, I can’t see any signs of the Minotaur and I hope that the beast has been tied up with orders from it’s master, I hope that I will never have face that beast again and I hope that the nightmares fade away. Yet, despite all my troubles and worries, I wonder from the labyrinth with a smile upon my lips as I head towards our home, our Paradise. I think upon what the day will bring as I draw closer and closer to the white clouds, I think of your sleeping form and how badly I want to embrace you and never let you go, I think that no matter what tomorrow has in store for us, we will enjoy it together with a smile upon our faces”~ random thought

Well the job centre was the same as always but I’m still trying to work out what the advisor meant but that’s a different story. I decided to give my writing club a miss today mainly because I thought that by the time I finished with the dole I would be rushing to get my material and then rushing to the community centre and I always feel like if I’m rushing I’m always out of breathe. So, long story short; no writing club for me but I will be back next week. Anyway; I have now just joined pinterest but I can’t seem to ‘pin’ my blog because it needs an image, please feel free to follow me there if you want; http://uk.pinterest.com/heatherp3787/, I’m just testing the water’s but I’m also finding incredible things and ideas on there but feel free to look anyway. On a side note; my old blog has reached 2,365 page views and this blog has reached 8,464 page views (there has been traffic on both blogs)

Just another day submitting application forms although I will admit, it is slightly easier now that I have the know how on how to deal with certain application forms and what I can add into them but that is a different story and I hope that this time when I go to the job centre that they don’t ask about my work placement because my hands are still tied with that one. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,364 page views and this blog has reached 8,448 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for continuing to visit both blogs.

“The demons swarm my mind now as I try to stay focused and one step ahead of them but it isn’t easy because the Hydra is a powerful foe and I am not confident I can see anyway out of this situation but I close my eyes for a moment and think of a cool blue sea, I see us standing there watching the waves crash beneath us, I can smell the salty bitterness of the sea in the calm breeze that blows my hair, I see us standing there hand in hand, unmoving, unchanging. This vision keeps me going, it keeps me strong, it takes my mind of the labyrinth that I keep falling into. Now, the vision changes into reality, I see us in Paradise now, I see us lying together upon a cloud of dreams and happiness, I see us still holding hands as the rest of the world flies by. It won’t be long now till I am in Paradise once more and it won’t be long until I share that cloud with you my sweet prince. I smile effortlessly now as I push all the doubts and the demons away, I smile as I see your handsome face, I smile as I think of you, I smile as I think of tomorrow”~ random thought

I find it easier to edit Reach whilst listening to music, I pretty sure that it keeps the demons at bay but that’s just my opinion. As I just mentioned, I have been editing and you can read the full story on my old blog: http://heatherpollock98.blogspot.co.uk/. I don’t have a set playlist before you ask, I just play the songs I have on my Ipod and type like there is no tomorrow. On a side note; not much excitement today apart from the fact that I wish that job had been in Kirkcaldy because it would have been ideal but that’s a different story. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,359 page views and this blog has reached 8,409 page views (there has been traffic on both blogs).