I have not laughed so hard in a long time, usually that’s what Mike does best, he makes me laugh when I’m done but today it was a close friend of mine whom I bumped into at the bus stop (of all places), I wasn’t really down but I certainly apprenticed the random banter with my friend but that is a different story for another day. On a side note; my old blog has reached 2,332 page views and this blog has reached 7,998 page views. A big thank you all you nice people for continuing to visit both blogs.

I’m not sure what I mean by the title of this post but never mind, it seems as though I’ve miscalculated the amount of guests that are coming to our wedding but I’ve redeemed myself however on a different note; yesterday with Mike was really great but I certainly miss his tender embrace today but that’s a different story. I’ve also applied for a job which was probably sitting in my inbox since yesterday. On a side note; my old blog has reached 2,321 page views and this blog has reached 7,988 page views (there has been traffic on both blogs).

“Nightmares haunt me again in the night, the Minotaur laughs at its creation, it laughs at the torment it is causing but today there has been silence except for the whirlwind thought that still plays on my mind but that doesn’t matter, soon when the gentle Sun rises above the dark horizon I will be in Paradise once more with you my sweet prince and your tender embrace will sooth this dark lingering thought and I will be free from the Minotaur, from Hell, from these stony wall, tomorrow I will be your princess and your queen”~ random thought

Well today is a day for small accomplishments methinks; http://heatherpollock98.blogspot.co.uk/ the first is my old blog, finally done some editing, so feel free to read that. Secondly; I wrote something on wordpress, a quite open post if I do say so myself; http://heatherpollock92.wordpress.com/ please feel free to read that as well. Lastly; I have booked an appointment to see the wedding planner at The Victoria Hotel with Mike on the 25th at 1 o’clock, I am suddenly very nervous about that. Anyway; my old blog has reached; 2,315 page views and this blog has reached 7,958 page views (there has been traffic on both blogs).

Today has been rather productive on my part, no editing however although I’ve got my laptop back which has come in handy as I’ve been busy drawing although I’m taking a break for a while before I go back to it. Sufficed to say the problem with my laptop was easily solved which I am silently grateful for but that is a different story. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,308 page views and this blog has reached 7,945 page views (there has been a jump in traffic here).

Unfortunately this post is mainly going to one huge complaint with some good news but I’ll leave that till later. I’m now sick of the dole and their attitude towards me, why I hear you ask, well here is the story; I went into today hoping to use the computers which aren’t that easy or functional to use so I waited patiently for my appointment, I go seen on time as normal when I complained to my advisor about Triage she kept saying the words “oh well” and shrugging her shoulders like she couldn’t care less, it would have all been one if I sat there and told here I was getting abuse at Triage, maybe she would listen. The other thing she said was “it is never easy”, no shit (sorry for the language) I felt like was wasting my time there making an official complaint, it was also her attitude when I frankly told her my advisor can’t be bothered doing anything for, she said “you should case her up” and I told her that when I did so Vicky bit my head off and she was back to the “oh well” again. There is no winning, I’m stuck in a rut and no-one is throwing me a line to grab onto, I’m applying for places and failing to meet the employer’s standard’s, what am I missing? Am I heading in the wrong direction? Is pursuing my dream further the answer? I’ve already answered that question, so it looks like I’ll be heading to the Citizen’s Advice Bureau to see if there is way I can pursue my complaint’s about Triage a different way, let’s hope so because I feel like I am going to rip out my hair. Anyway, the good news; my mum and I went into to Kirkcaldy to pay the £50 deposit for the church, I will admit it feels good having made that life changing deposit, now the ball starts rolling in the other direction. On a calm note; my old blog has reached 2,308 page views and this blog has reached 7,928 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for visiting both blogs.

Another day in the office as I always say although I am still working on name badges but I should be finished them by the end of today providing that I don’t get distracted by my own thoughts but that is a different story, anyway, I will apologise for the briefness of this post. On a side note; my old blog has reached 2,308 page views and this blog has reached 7,891 page views (there has been a lot of traffic here).

I always find these posts quite hard to type as I usually struggle to find the write words to type but that is a different story, yesterday with Mike was really, really, really, really awesome and amazing, although I forgot to tell him that something was bothering me yesterday but it didn’t matter as whatever it was, soon evaporated into nothing. On a different note; my old blog has reached 2,308 page views and this blog has reached 7,881 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for continuing to visit both blogs.

“Again the nightmares come and go as the Minotaur breathes heavily in the cold air of the labyrinth, it is dreaming? It is awake? I’m not even sure as I wonder closer and closer to it’s body but dare not linger any longer as Paradise is calling me home, I don’t need to search for that light anymore, I’ve found my own to Paradise, all I need to do is keep my head high and smile, like always, all I need is your tender embrace and your sweet words, all I need is the warmth and comfort you bring, tomorrow, I will be in Paradise once again with you my sweet prince and I wouldn’t have it any other way”~ random thought

Today has been spent mostly reading and contemplating although I’m not surprised that I sit facing the laptop screen with slightly tired eyes but I wish next week would come quicker as I feel like I’ve lost a vital life-line (well maybe not that far but you get my drift) but I can only hope in the meantime that they will fix whatever is wrong with my laptop. On a general note; my old blog has reached 2,308 page views and this blog has reached 7,856 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for continuing to visit both blogs.