That email has just made my day, I will explain in a moment. Recently, I’ve been wondering if I have been chosen to perform on thee 11th of this month at the next Fife Write’s Event, strangely in a twist of fate I have been offered a five minute slot on that night, it looks like my Hyde monologue and two Lucifer letters are coming out to play. I’m a so pleased that with this news but secretly I’m nervous as well but I can only hope that the audience will like my performances on the night. Also, I made a random news letter for my website today to try and promote my business more. On a less stranger note; my old blog has reached 2,285 page views and this blog has reached 7,563 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people for visiting both blogs.

Well methinks this will be a rather short post and I’m already struggling to find words to type here, mainly because I’m tired. However, I’ve noticed that already Vicki has failed to do what I’ve asked but there is another few days to go yet before next week but I have sneaking suspicion that she won’t even contact me and I will be back at square one or so she thinks anyways. Today was another shit day as we were meant to go to Glasgow but there is havoc on the train lines, so instead we (by we I mean my mum, my bro and me) had the day in Edinburgh which was utterly pointless. On a better note; I don’t know if I should consider this course; http://www.fifedirect.org.uk/topics/index.cfm?fuseaction=page.display&p2sid=EDB34BEE-1CC4-E06A-52B18F1C3F88F9CF&themeid=64E1DD0B-86FD-4099-BCDF-43D5F7B48D3D, I’ve been recommended it by a friend but to me it seems basic, I’ve now got knowledge of grammar but it isn’t solving my problem, no grammar course will, I need to re-write Reach from start to finish. On a much better note; my old blog has reached 2,285 page views and this blog has reached 7,549 page views (there has been a lot of traffic here).

Alas, that title is true, Triage was horrendous today, why, mainly because of my advisor, I hate the way she acts towards me when I sit at her desk, I’m no fool, I can tell from a mile that she was putting on the act of being nice to me just because she hasn’t seen in me in several weeks. When she informed me about a job in Dunfermline I told her that I’m travel sick and I know my agreement with them and I actively encouraged her to phone the dole who restricted my travel to just Glenrothes, Kirkcaldy and Leven due this fact, my reward for my honest, I was told that I am flippant and rude, somehow I don’t think so, someone was sitting with their advisor with their headphones in, now that’s rude, at least I’m listening to her and putting up with her intolerable demeanour. So, finally after several months I might be getting emails from her about jobs and she might put my CV forward to the new Next they are building but I will wait and see. I’m giving her a week a best before I see her manager. Also, I might be getting another placement with the NHS and apparently if I apply for an internal job whilst on that placement I am guaranteed an interview and maybe a job. I hope it falls through to be honest. I missed my writing club today because of my advisor, people often forget I put up with a year of someone demoralising me, I’m not having Vicki do the same, I’ve got a wedding to look forward to and the last thing I need on my plate is more stress. On a much calmer note; my old blog has reached 2,285 page views and this blog has reached 7,538 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for continuing to visit both blogs.

Well today was mainly the highlight’s of Kirkcaldy although I strangely bumped into my old art teacher who I’ve not seen in 4 years since I left High School but I must admit, for a retired school teacher she is looking well although once I spotted my old teacher, the flashback’s were instantaneous but memorable although they did make me feel older (but I won’t reflect on that). On another note; my old blog has reached 2,285 page views and this blog has reached 7,529 page views (there has been a lot of traffic here). 

Once again I find myself deep within thought or rather deep within the walls of the labyrinth again and to be perfectly honest I feel like I have lost my way within these darkened walls but all of that is a different story. At the moment however I am trying to work out a suitable title for my note or poem for yesterday with Mike was it was a really great day. On a different note; today is going to be a lazy day methinks. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,285 page views and this blog has reached 7,518 page views . Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for visiting both blogs.

“Moments of clarity in the darkness of the labyrinth, those moments I cherish most as I sit here in this drab and unforgiven place but I don’t dwell on that nor do I dwell upon the silent Minotaur, I smile now as I always smile when I think of you my sweet prince, tomorrow I will be within your tender embrace once more and I can erase the silent worries and the stress, I don’t linger here in this dark place instead I search for the light of Paradise and I journey now with happy heart towards that light and to your tender smile”~ random thought

I really hate talking about myself, not sure why, I’d rather let the vain take that pleasure but never mind, today has been a really horrible day, mainly worrying and stressing about my wedding day but that’s normal, what isn’t normal is when I worry that day seems like an impossible dream when its only a few steps away from becoming a reality, yes I know its not for another year yet but in this day in age you have to have advance booking because its “first come, first serve”. So today began with the heartrending phone call to the church about prices and they still can’t get me answer, I doubt there will be much of a problem of not being a member of the church but what about the fee’s? Will they charge us for not being member’s? It would seem unfair when the church itself allows all to enter through its door’s. Does this fact put me off? Slightly, we met at the college and I want to stare the college in the face and show them where I am now. However, the minister/reverent is back on the 10th, so that means I’m going to crap myself again when we enter through those doors and begin the long conversation of figures and the possibility of tears seem likely. What I need right now is some reassurance that everything is going to be alright and that day isn’t dream/fantasy and a hug from the man I love more than anything else in the world. On much more sensible note; my old blog has reached 2,282 page views and this blog has reached 7,488 page views (there has been a lot of traffic here). 

Well today has been another sunny day although there has been quite a bitter wind but that is a different story, spent day with my mum and brother again but this time we ventured into Dunfermline just for a day out and I really don’t think I have much else to comment on today so I will apologise for the shortness of this post. On a side note; my old blog has reached 2,282 page views and this blog has reached 7,471 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people for continuing to visit both blogs.

Well today has been a very different day, the Sun has been brightly shining in the blue yonder above although the dole was still a waste of time as I learnt that I need to see Triage about getting my advisor to send me email’s about jobs that are opening in either retail or admin work, so guess who still needs to speak to Vicki? I hope that she doesn’t dodge me this time round. Writing group today was another success and today whilst on my journey to the writing group I caught the most beautiful butterfly, methinks my luck might be changing but I won’t speak too soon. On a separate note; my old blog has reached 2,282 page views and this blog has reached 7,463 (methinks there has been a lot traffic here).

Well for a sort methinks I spent most of last night worrying about something really stupid but that is a different story, anyway, today was a family outing to Dundee which to be frank could have gone a lot better but I’m too tired to complain to about it but never mind. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,282 page views and this blog has reached 7,451 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people for visiting both blogs.