Another day in the cold and frankly lonely Limbo, Paradise seems further away than normal but never mind, Thursday as you know was Mike’s birthday, he loved everything that I gave him as well as my mum, I think he was feeling a bit spoiled but what can I say, I love him so damn much, he deserves it, Friday was a normal day with Mike as the party didn’t fall through but to be honest I preferred spending the whole day with him but it was still really awesome and Saturday with Mike was really great although I just want to hold his hand and kiss his sweet lips. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,280 page views and this blog has reached 7,435 page views (there has been traffic flow on both blogs).

“Paradise has is door’s open wide once more and I steadily raise myself from the hard ground of the labyrinth but I do so with a smile, the Minotaur begins to shout again in a language I don’t understand, I am deaf to its cries and I climb the stairs to Paradise once more, I already envision myself, wrapped within your tender embrace, I already see the day unfolding before my very eyes and I feel at peace, an endless calm wraps me in a blanket, I will sleep easy tonight and I will wait with a nervous excitement for tomorrow to unfurl”~ random thought

Well once again Triage was a waste of £8.30 and it seems my adviser is never there or wants to talk to me when I have a scheduled appointment with her, I am just wondering is she is either avoiding me or my questions which for some time have been put off but only my adviser can answer them, at this rate I might have to pull her up for negligence but never mind. Writing club today was pretty quiet as there was only 3 of us but I seem to becoming less and less aware of my nerves which is a good thing. On another note; I just got an email back from the writing competition I entered, it seems the winner’s were notified last week, I was not one of them, not entirely disheartened by that, at least someone else will make do with the prize money and the chance to get there book/poem published. On a different note; my old blog has reached 2,279 page views and this blog has reached 7,403 page views (there has been a lot of traffic here).

Fell like a different person, in a good way though, methinks I am back to my ‘normal self’, today was just a trip to the bank and back, not looking forward to Triage tomorrow however I was working hard on a drawing for Mike for the 24th (I may have mentioned that earlier in this blog), will probably write the letter tomorrow, so in short, just another normal day. On a lighter note; my old blog has reached 2,279 page views and this blog has reached 7,394 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people for visiting both blogs.

I wish I could rewind time so I was back in the arms of the man I love, I left so much unsaid yesterday and to be frank its taking its toll, slowly, like poison, my mind seems to whirl endlessly with random, broken thoughts of some misshaped paranoia, I suddenly wish I was in Paradise again, I would kiss Mike’s sweet lips although don’t get me wrong, yesterday was really great but yet my head seems to have gotten in the way. Now, as I type this, I feel like I’ve stripped away, piece by piece, fragmented, its feels like my conscience is floating away, ghost like, but I suppose all of that is a different story. On a contrasting note; my old blog has reached 2,279 page views and this blog has reached 7,385 page views (there has been traffic flow on both blogs).

“The labyrinth has not been pleasant, random nightmares haunt my sleep like ghosts but I will forget them tomorrow, I will forget the unease, the worry, everything, I will be in Paradise tomorrow, nothing matters there expect you and I, I miss Paradise more and more, I have missed the comfort of your arms, I have missed the way you make me smile and hold my hand, tomorrow I will truly be in Paradise, when I’m with you I will smile brighter and my day will be filled of laughter and joy, your amazing, you know that my sweet prince, I smile here as I wait bright eyed for the dawn to come, wait for me once more my sweet prince in our Paradise of love, wait for tomorrow to come with that tenderly sweet smile of yours”~ random thought

A more relaxed day for me, although I phoned Triage asking id they could sent me a cover letter template and to be honest I was surprised they didn’t ask why and methinks I’m coming up with a script for the next time I go, which isn’t till the 19th, I’ve a lot of questions that I can ask my adviser, hopefully she doesn’t wake up the Hyde but that is a different story. Oh, I forgot to add that when I was at the dole on Tuesday, I learnt that I have a work coach, don’t ask me what that means or what on earth they do but apparently I have one. On a general note; my old blog has reached 2,274 page views and this blog has reached 7,359 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for visiting both blogs.

Unfortunately I feel as though I don’t have a lot of time, so I will be brief, today was just a general day, pretty much like every other day although I was in Leven earlier just helping out my mum, etc. So, in short, I will apologise for the briefness of this blog. On a different note; my old blog has reached 2,274 page views and this blog has reached 7,349 page views (methinks there has been a jump in traffic here).

Well it certainly feels as though today has been a whirlwind of events stacked together, the dole was still a waste of my time and they asked me for the first time how regularly I attend Triage, I couldn’t lie to them, it used to be every two weeks but they are short staffed, what else was I meant to say? If they are now going to doubt my attendance there, maybe they could give them a call. Anyway, I was back to my writing club which I have sorely missed. On another note; as the title says, methinks I will put my feet up for a while but if the dole is reading this then I’ve already applied for a job at Lidl’s. On a side note; my old blog has reached 2,274 page views and this blog has reached 7,341 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people for continuing to visit both blogs.

Unfortunately I’m not talking about my editing which to be frank I desperately need to get back to, at the moment I’m searching this blog for all the Lucifer letter’s I put up because the original’s were badly written and methinks the need reviving, by that I mean another performance on my part, yes you did read that right, I have decided (maybe foolishly) to put my name for a 5 minute performance at the next Fife Write’s Event which I will be attending in earnest but I can only hope that now my name doesn’t get chosen at random out of the hat but if it does then I am going to have to find some self confidence and fast. On another note; my old blog has reached 2,274 page views and this blog has reached 7,318 page views (there has been a lot of traffic here).