I certainly feel as though I’m a tiny seedling in this vast darkness with no source of light or indeed water and yet somehow in the mist of the darkness I will thrive or at least attempt to anyway mainly because I’m trying to keep my hopes and spirits alive despite all the odds against me but at the moment methinks we will just have to wait and see what happens, in the meantime you have noticed that there is no double post but that is because I will have time to type something here. On another note; my old blog has reached 2053 page views and this blog has reached 5145 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people for visiting both blogs.

I feel as though my p.c could certainly use a jolt of something as it seems to be limiting itself to certain tasks which doesn’t make much sense but never mind although on a positive note I’m feeling much better thanks to one phone call to the most amazing fiance in the world. On another note; I wish to briefly apologize for not being on my old blog, unfortunately I have to wait until April before I receive any feedback from the two agents. On a side note; my old blog has reached 2053 page views and this blog has reached 5134 page views (methinks there has been some traffic here).

Well at least this heap of junk that I call my p.c is in working order today but I might be speaking too soon (lets hope not) although it seems as though the dark thoughts from yesterday have come back tenfold today (which isn’t surprising to be honest) but in short; I can only hope that they once again vanish into the darkness. On a different note; I must apologize for rant yesterday. On another note; my old blog has reached 2053 page views (a small traffic flow there) and this blog has reached 5115 page views.

Somehow I think that title reflects my opinion of the dole now a days, for it seems as though if your not on drugs or on the drink you get treated like a piece of dirt and unfortunately I wish I joking but alas however methinks if the dole want to try to play their games then I can just as easily pick up the dice and roll a 7/11 (yes I am referring to gambling for no aberrant reason) which brings me onto the dole again, how do they treat the gamblers who they know that are just going to throw away the governments money, maybe the same rule applies but who knows. On a more subtle note; my old blog has reached 2052 page views and this blog has reached 5091 page views (methinks there has been some traffic flow).

Not enitrely sure what I mean by the title of this post I’m trying hard to think of new titles for every post I put up here which isn’t easy but on a seperate note; yesterday with Mike was super amazing and awesome, I really don’t know what I’d do without him. On another note; my old blog has reached 2052 page views and this blog has reached 5076 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people there for continuing to visit both blogs.

“It feels as though these past few days that something has been missing, mainly sleep on the odd occasion but yet something else stirred within those deep wall of the labyrinth, something that I thought I had long since left behind in the dust, something that I thought I had won against, the dark thoughts thrive within the shadows, always lurking, I wonder in this labyrinth fearing the worst and the dark thoughts only get stronger yet the gentle sun shines amongst these shadows, the light of Paradise, warm and welcoming, tomorrow I will forget these unwarranted fears and cast them aside once more my sweet prince, tomorrow this labyrinth will no longer clip my wings, tomorrow my sweet prince I will lye in your tender embrace forever”~ random thought

Thankfully I managed to upload a pic of my business card here, speaking of business, I’ve finally sorted out my website for the last time so methinks or rather I hope with some hand outs of my business card a lot more people will be able to see what I want to do as a career and hopefully people will then spread the word about my business, etc, etc and who knows, the possibilities are endless. On another note; I’m going to be attending another even based on writing but it is entitled “Getting to where you want to be” is basically going to be a 2 hour workshop talking to peers and other people that are in the same situation as me, it is on the 15th of March and thankfully my place has been booked although I still need to pay the £10 for my lunch but I can’t complain. On side note; my old blog has reached 2047 page views and this blog has reached 5023 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people for continuing to visit both blogs.

Well my fellow readers I’m not entirely sure where to start on this blog as Friday with Mike was super amazing and awesome and probably the best Valentine’s Day ever, mainly because we went to the cinema and had a meal later on the day which I thoroughly enjoyed (I’ve never had a meal with him before so I was kind of nervous) and yesterday with Mike was also super amazing and awesome, overall Mike is a saint and I really love him with all my heart and soul. On another note; my old blog has reached 2047 page views and this blog has reached 4980 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for visiting both blogs.

Well the dole was very ‘eventful’ as I had to sit for an extra while as apparently I must have missed something during last week and somehow it’s messed up their system, it’s sort of difficult to explain in layman’s terms but in short my job search has now been reduced to 11 steps instead of 17 not that I’m complaining but the only reason why that has happened is because of the odd occasion my p.c refuses to work and I don’t think the dole will be willing enough to pay me to print of things from the library, the days that happens pigs will be flying in the sky on broomsticks. On a side note; my old blog has reached 2043 page views and this blog has reached 4929 page views (methinks there has been traffic flow on both blogs).

I will firstly apologise for the shortness of these post as I’ve not had much to comment on here as it seems there is slightly more action now on my old blog but that is a different story however tomorrow I will not enjoy my frequent (rather fortnightly) trip to the dole, 2 minutes in and out, the bain of my life (for the moment) but that again is another story for another day. Also, I must give you all a big thank you for liking the new look of this blog. On another note; my old blog has reached 2030 page views and this blog has reached 4917 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for continuing to visit both blogs.