It certainly feels as though I am indeed grasping at straws by asking someone to take on Reach but then again all authors had to start where I am today; at the bottom and work their way up plus it’s not like their isn’t a market for YA, it is on the rise thanks to a famous comedian making some children’s fiction related novels so if they are selling then why can’t I seem to find the right person to take on Reach, I mean I know it’s not perfect but who’s says that a good story needs to be perfect however I will recommend that you read my latest post on my old blog before I continue to ramble on. On a different note;  my old blog has reached 1971 page views and this blog has reached 4756 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there that are visiting both blogs.

Well my birthday with Mike was super amazing and awesome even though I remembered that we shared my 18th together (which was 4 years ago, scary thought) somehow Friday seemed more epic and awesome although I won’t bore you nice people with what I got but all you need to is that Friday was awesome and so was yesterday as it kind of felt like an extension on my birthday (even though it was Robert Burn’s Day) but never mind, it was still awesome. On another note; my old blog has reached 1970 page views and this blog has reached 4738 page views (methinks there has been some traffic flow here).

“The Minotaur and the hounds of Hell certainly laughed when they saw me fall from the great white clouds above this labyrinth of cold darkness, they laughed as they watched me crumble into a fit of self-loathing and panic, how they mocked me, now I stand here, ready to take the Minotaur head long into another battle of wits, only one will come out on top, today was the first step towards victory when I kept my head held high despite the odd that were against me, now I can unbind my wings once more and be free, into those white clouds I will join you once more my sweet prince, once on my birthday which I have never spent with anyone before and Saturday, I’m nervous but excited at the same time, I determined now more than ever to beat these hell-hounds once and for all, so smile now my sweet prince and think of those days we will have together”~ random thought

I’m going to be honest with you nice people, since I phoned Mike on Sunday I’ve been feeling better yet somethings stirs vaguely in the back of mind and I’m just wondering if I’m worrying about my audience with Triage and also the fact that it’s a day before my birthday and also I really rather not been in a foul mood because I get to spend my birthday with Mike, so the thoughts linger still and they are certainly not giving me any piece of mind but at least when I go Triage I’m going to the mask, the long forgotten mask that says “no matter what you say and do, I’m going to sit here and smile”. On another note; my old blog has reached 1955 page views and this blog has reached 4703 page views (methinks there has been some traffic flow here).

Well not much is happening today I’m afraid apart from the fact that the last thing I ordered for Mike’s Valentine’s Day has arrived early but I’m not complaining, speaking of orders; I’ve been meaning to say that I only got half my money back from the company DHGate so methinks I’m just going to delete my profile there and have nothing more to do with them. On another note; my old blog has reached 1955 page views (there has been a huge jump there methinks) and this blog has reached 4696 page views.

Firstly; I will apologise for my rubbish mood yesterday as it felt as though I was blinded by my own darkness and I couldn’t see the light when it was right in front of me the whole time. Secondly; a bit of topic but if anyone out there has had previous experience in planning their would you mind sharing some tips with me because I’ve not got a clue, please and thank you. Thirdly; again I would direct to my old blog even though nothing has changed. On a side note; my old blog has reached 1945 page views and this blog has reached 4682 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there that are visiting both blogs.

Well yesterday was great with Mike but I’m not going to lie as I sit here and ponder upon yesterday’s events if feels as though I’ve finally screwed up the one thing that I need and love the most in the world to put it bluntly yesterday I had the biggest panic attack I’ve ever had and now the paranoia/the aftermath will not leave me and as you can gather from the title of this post that I desperate to let go of the pain and I’m also desperate to know what is going to happen know mainly because it feels as though the world is falling apart and nothing seems right anymore, what have I done? That is the question I keep asking myself. On a different note; my old blog has reached 1944 page views and this blog has reached 4666 page views (there is some irony there).

“Surprisionaly, in this week in labyrinth has been calm and Minotaur strangely quiet yet deep within these wall my senses stir that something, somewhere along this peacefull path has to go wrong, or does it? I’m gratefull for the peace in the labyrinth because my mind no longer seems clouded with dark thoughts and that means in short I can lye within your tender embrace without a care in the world, I can relax knowing that I am safe and that nothing can torment me nor will anything spoil our today together my sweet prince, that I vow to you, I promise, I won’t let the demons win again, so smile my sweet prince and think of the joys tomorrow will bring for us both”~ random thought

You can certainly say that again, it feels as though I’ve been either really busy doing bits and pieces or thinking about random stuff as you will see from my old blog, the other thing I found whilst searching the internet was the fact that there are self employed writers out there but methinks most of them are food bloggers (methinks you all know what I mean by that) but if there are any self employed writers out there that sell and write books for a living would you mind passing on tips/hints on how you managed to get where you are today, please and thank you. On a separate note; my old blog has reached 1933 page views (there has been a huge jump in traffic) and this blog has reached 4615 page views.

I’m not entirely sure what I mean by that title but never mind, today seems a much more relax day mainly because methinks I’ve less stuff to do or either that my motivation has run dry but all of that is a different story. While I remember, I recommend that you read the latest post on my old blog (not much as changed though but never mind). On another note; my old blog has reached 1915 page views and this blog has reached 4594 page views (methinks there has been a lot of traffic here).