“Weep not my dear for I have not gone far, I’ve only wondered back into the cold dark labyrinth where hope seems to slip away like sand in my fingers, smile for me dear for that smile brings warmth the ache I feel within me, smile when you think of me and when you think of our day together, those happy moment that never seem to end, I already try to smile within this labyrinth as I think your sweet kiss and the warmth within your heavenly eyes, think of those happier times my dear and weep not for soon I will leave this labyrinth again to be with you forever more”~ random thought.

In short; yesterday with Mike was awesome and today I don’t feel like myself but on another note my old blog has reached 1293 page views and this blog has reached 1811 page views (there has been traffic flow on both blogs it seems).

“Smile my dear, for the day is almost over, smile my darling, for I will join you once again in your tender embrace, smile because you know that when you smile it make me happy, smile because you will be with me again and we will live in our own little world away from this chaos, smile as you have smiled so many times before, smile until your cheeks start to hurt a little bit, smile because I will be smiling with you all the way” ~random thought

P.s In short tomorrow I will be with my handsome sexy fiance Mike who needs a medal because he is a saint

Or so the saying goes anyway but again I can only bring more of the same thing that I have been writing here for the past few days which is mainly silence both from the NHS and the literary agents that have still to get back to me however at this rate I’m starting to think that either my luck has run out or my luck needs to change at some point but maybe there is hope still out there for one woman and her dream. On a side note; my old blog has reached 1284 page views (there has been some traffic flow there) and this blog has reached 1754 page views.

Unfortunately I’ve very little to say in this post that doesn’t repeat what has already been said here so I therefore apologize if this post is short. However, for a moment I will reflect on the title of this post mainly because it feels as though the NHS have completely forgotten what they said to on my interview and they certainly have made no attempt to contact me which I will admit is a tad worrying. On a side note; my old blog has reached 1281 page views and this blog has reached 1725 page views (methinks there has been some more traffic flow here again).

For once that storm wasn’t in my head it was outside with loud clashes of thunder and certainly bright flashes of lightening although I am slightly glad it has gone away not because I’m afraid of thunder and lightening but mainly because I was getting very concerned about Mike who has to work outside no matter what the weather (a small factor of the job he has to do) but as I said I’m just glad the thunder and lightening is gone. On a side note; my old blog has reached 1281 page views and this blog has reached 1706 page views (methinks there has been a lot of traffic flow here).

It certainly feels as though I am carrying around a very small and yet heavy burden upon my shoulders mainly because I’m slightly worried about the job I went for an interview for and to be honest with you I am desperately clinging onto to hope that they get back to me at some point, although my other burden is that my mail box just seems like a bearer of bad news (in terms of either no emails from agents which there is only 3 left or emails saying they can’t take on my work). To be honest I really just want to lye down somewhere and have Mike give me a shoulder massage but that’s a different story. On another note; my old blog has reached 1276 page views and this blog has reached 1665 page vies. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there for continuing to read both of my blogs.

Bit of a strange title for a blog post I know but somehow today does seem very quiet probably because once again I’m waiting on a few more agents to get back to me although I’m sure there is only 4 left although I would have to double check my list again at some point but all of that is another story for another day. On a side note; my old blog has reached 1271 page views and this blog has reached 1649 page views (methinks there has been another surge of traffic here).

Well all I have to say in regards to my day with my handsome sexy fiance Mike was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo awesome although the ‘holiday’ Mike decided to take off was just for yesterday however I though it would be for a week instead of just a day although I can’t complain because I got to spend the whole day with the man I love. On a side note; today really I’m going to be with my mum spending money as the title suggests on probably some stuff that we are needing but that is another story for another time. On a different note; my old blog has reached 1270 page views and this blog has reached 1627 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there that are taking the time to read both blogs.

Firstly; this will be my second post for today as I have posted in my old blog. Secondly; to the people that are trying to add me into their circles here I will apologize for blocking you but I’m afraid I have very little idea who are and if you read my blog please state somewhere that you do so. Thirdly; I won’t be here tomorrow because Mike has taken a holiday of his work (which he badly needs methinks) so I will be with him tomorrow although Mike is busy Saturday which means I will be back here to write so short post. Fourthly; I will apologize for any confusion I may have cause. Last but not least; my old blog has reached 1259 page views and this blog has reached 1600 page views (which is simply insane).

Well that’s what the old saying says anyway but it somehow applies to general things at the moment for I am still sitting here waiting for something to happen although don’t get me wrong I will still be applying for other jobs (if there are any) and I will still be vainly trying to hang onto some glimpse of hope that somewhere along this journey towards self employment there is a light at the end of the tunnel however that light seems to be in the shape of my handsome sexy fiance telling me not to give in. “I will take you hand sir so that you can lead me towards the golden light, I will take your hand dear knowing that I will be safe, I take your hand my sweet prince knowing that your always there for me” ~ slight random thought. On another note; my old blog has reached 1241 page views and this blog has reached 1567 page views (there must have been a huge traffic flow during the night).