Firstly; despite my nerves my interview went rather well yesterday although I now have to wait for 2 weeks till someone gets back to me letting me know if I have got the job either that they will phone before then letting me know I haven’t been successful, so I’m keeping my fingers crossed for that to. Secondly; it certainly feels like I am either tempting faith (as the title of this post says) or I’m asking for too much because I want to get a job (who doesn’t?) or become self employed but it seems to me like I can’t have both by the way in which agents have been silent over the past few days/weeks till now however I’m not giving up on becoming self employed, quite the opposite, for I am trying to look on the brighter side of things by saying to myself that somewhere out there an agent will take on my work. Last but not least; my old blog has reached 1165 page views (there has been some traffic flow since my post) and this blog has reached 1332 page views (which is insane).

My interview isn’t until 11 o’clock although I will still have to get an early bus into the hospital because I have very little idea where I am going mainly because the hospital is too big but that’s a different story. On a side; I said yesterday that I would try to fill you in briefly of the job my interview is for, the job is for a clerical officer (sort of like my work placement but with different duties I would assume) and although my sort of dream job is to within an office part of me feels as though it’s not 100% satisfied (I’m not really sure I can explain why). On another note; it seems my old blog is now down to only 3 audience members from different country’s although I’m going to assume that the rest of them are floating there way onto this blog. On a different note; my old blog has reached 1160 page views (despite the small numbers) and this blog has reached 1206 (methinks there has been another traffic flow here).

Well today has already been interesting mainly because I’ve had to phone Triage (sort of another place where unemployed people go, like the dole) to cancel my appointment I had for tomorrow, then I had to go down to the dole to say that I can’t make the time they had already arranged for me just to get a new one for tomorrow while by the time tomorrow comes I will be trying to make myself less nervous about my job interview (I will try to post more information on that tomorrow if I can) so as you can tell I’m going to have a pretty crazy day dealing with an interview and the dole. On a side note; it seems only a few audience members are left on my old blog which is rather worrying although there is little I can do about it mainly because no-one has got back to me yet and one agent is close to their 6 week of no contact although I might wait till the whole 8 weeks are up before I start to get concerned about that. On a different note; this blog has gained new audience members from Singapore so a big welcome to you nice people there. On another note; my old blog is still on 1149 page views and this blog has reached 1177 page views, once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there.

Neither today or tomorrow will my smile dye away mainly because I will be with my handsome sexy fiance Mike all day probably just wondering the high street although I remember he said to me he might pop into the bank for something but that’s a different story. At the end of the day all I know is that I love being with him and certainly after this weeks random stress (another different story) I’m just going to hug him all day and never let go.

I have been asking myself the exact same question for the past few days and today is no different although I will admit I can’t wait till Saturday because I want to curl up into a little ball beside Mike and he can look after me because he does that anyways but that is a different story. On a side note; it seems my old blog has gained new audience members from Lithuania so a big welcome to you nice people there also this blog has gained new audience members from Argentina so a big welcome to you nice people as well. On another note; my old blog has reached 1144 page views (I’m sure there has been another traffic flow again) and this blog has reached 1135 page views.

It certainly feels as though I have reached a dead end in my journey towards becoming self employed because I double checked my list of agents still to get back to and only one is near their 6-8 ‘deadline’ which isn’t really comforting because they haven’t even sent an email or nothing explaining their lack of contact although I will say that there are far more submission out there that they could consider, maybe time will tell if any of the agents will get back to me. On another note; my old blog has reached 1143 page views (methinks there has been another traffic since yesterday) and this blog has reached 1122 page views.

Thankfully my p.c is back up and running much to my liking although today really see’s more of the same thing from yesterday mainly the continuous silence from the literary agents which reminds me I will have to probably check the list I have written down to make sure that the one’s that have still to get back to me haven’t expired their 6-8 week period of notification. On a side note; it seems this blog has gained new audience members from Saudi Arabia so a big welcome to you nice people there. On another note; I had a thought (I have too many of those) that I could post a link for all you nice people to easily get onto my old blog (encase you haven’t saved it) http://heatherpollock98.blogspot.co.uk/. On a different note; my old blog has reached 1141 page views (I’m sure there has been another surge of traffic) and this blog has reached 1104 page views.

Well it seems as though my p.c is on the blink which doesn’t help although l have a mild guess to what is wrong with it however I’m no expert but that is a different story. On a separate note; it seems as though the silence from the literary agents has returned which I will admit is making me just a tad anxious. On another note; my old blog has reached 1134 page views and this blog has reached 1090 page views. Once again a big thank you to all you nice people out there.

Do you ever get that one moment in life where you replay it all through the next day? That’s kind of how I feel today, like I’m constantly repeating that moment when Mike kissed me twice (not that you needed to know that) before he left as I got to my bus but he said “Take care beauitful” with nothing but a twinkle in his heavenly eyes (Mike has nice eyes to let you understand that last part) and I thought fleetingly as he walked away “no wonder I love you so much” with a brief smile on my face but that’s all another story for another time. On a side note; it seems my old blog has gained new auidence members from Sweden so a big welcome to you nice people there and this blog has gained new auidence members from Indonesia so a big welcome to you nice people as well. On another note; I came up with and idea (here we go again) that you can add me on Facebook (mainly to view the notes I write) or Twitter (for just general bits and pieces) or my Quizilla where I copy and paste my notes I write from Facebook so bear with me for a few seconds and I will post the links:

https://www.facebook.com/heather.pollock.524 < my Facebook
https://twitter.com/GiftedInsanity < my Twitter
http://quizilla.teennick.com/user/roseytears/ < my Quizilla

On a different note; my old blog has reached 1126 page views (methinks there has been another traffic flow) and this blog has reached 1077 page views (nearly 1080).

“In the morning when I wake, I open thine eyes with a never ending smile for I feel happy and filled with a light joy which makes me want to dance around and skip down the streets without a care in the world mainly because I feel as though I am set free, yes free, from the cold labyrinth that I seem to wonder into far too often. When the day begins I always feel the same butterflies fill my stomach even though I’ve wondered this path a million times before, I feel like I can soar above the imprisonment of that labyrinth and just feel at home within your embrace. For it is within your arms do I feel safe and I no longer have to worry about anything, just being with you makes me happy that is why I love you so much because you make me happy.” ~random thought

Where that thought came from I don’t know but never mind for in the morning I will be with my handsome sexy fiance Mike and I can tell you now that I love just spending the day with him.